After a pretty disastrous week two, I am feeling much better now that I have a firmer grip on my new workout routine. I have learned my lesson that "resting" for a full week is the same thing as "practically starting over."
Now that I feel a real commitment to this new lifestyle taking hold, I think the time has come to set a new goal. I had planned on doing this monthly; however, this goal can't wait. I have made a declaration I can't take back. I have accepted a challenge, and I did so publicly. If I am going to make it through this trial, I must begin my transformation now.
I agreed to run a 5k. (What was I thinking?)
I am going to run, walk –– possibly crawl –– my first 5k on March 24. About nine weeks remain until the race, and I have begun the Couch to 5k program. It's an app that I downloaded to my cell phone that is supposed to ease me into the training and make me capable of running a 5k in nine weeks. Ambitious little app, isn't it? The Starkville Central Neighborhood Foundation is holding a 10k/5k/family run/pet parade that Saturday, March 24 and I have already posted to both my Facebook and Twitter accounts that I will be there participating. The butterflies in my stomach take flight every time I think about it.
As much as I hate to admit it, fear is a huge motivation in my life. I am scared of embarrassing myself, I am scared of letting myself down and I am horribly scared of letting other people down. I am scared that long after the race is over and everyone else is asleep, my husband and my best friend will still be standing at the finish line waiting for me to show up while I am Army-crawling somewhere along Main Street while people laugh and point at me.
These powerful visions of failure are exactly what will push me to get up early, stay up late, rearrange my schedule, turn down social opportunities and abide the sore muscles to accomplish this goal. I haven't given myself a choice, and sometimes removing the easiest but unhealthiest choice is the kindest thing we can do for ourselves.
On a side note, I want to thank every friend, family member and complete stranger who has continued to encourage me since I started this crazy quest. I especially want to thank the staff of the Wellness Connection at Oktibbeha County Hospital and the many kind-hearted people who work and exercise there. I get lots of positive support when I walk in the door, and some days, those smiles really do make all the difference.